Have you?

Have you ever feel this kind of fear
Worry
of how things will not fall into its places
again
and again

And the trauma you got from your past
keep haunting you
keep warning you
keep consuming you

You thought it'll be a brand new moment
of your life
that you're waiting for
"ah, this is the right time!"

but then
when you're ready to light a match
your trauma flashes back
it rips your faith apart
to even turn the lighter on

the reflexion of how the mess of your past
you've made from a splash of fire
turned into BIG! disaster
for you
and everyone surrounds you

keeps haunting you
again
and again

But you know there's no turning back
It's a deadlock

Knowing that the only way to make a new flame
is by turning the lighter on

But you can't
You're haunted

Have you?

-a.n.